Friday, March 23, 2007

What is wrong with me?

Seriously. This is my rant blog about boys. Please, if you can, shine some light. I'm going to, more than likely, jump all over the place, so try and follow.

Here's the thing: I have no problem getting a guy's attention. I have had guys from all ages, corporate levels, races, single, married (yes, married), blah blah blah, ask me out. Why is it that after getting to know these guys, there's always something wrong?!

Let's start with PW (we will only be using initials, since I'm sure this blog is searchable). He was tall, handsome, very successful, single, and had an English accent! Yeah, but always BUSY. He's either working 12 or 13 hour days or travelling for work. So, out with him. Not only that, he wasn't family oriented and if you know me, you should know that family and friends are my world.

Moving on to SU. He was awesome from the outside. My age, single (well, that's what I was told,... haven't yet confirmed it), good looking, successful (not quite as much as PW, but SU is younger), respectful. He turned out to be a FREAK.

LS. Italian, very successful as well, handsome, cute accent, curly hair. MARRIED. I'm very nosey, as everyone who knows me knows... so I asked him why he's single. He said he's not, he is married. *mouth wide open*. He said his wife is very busy, very career oriented. They have only been married for a little over one year and he doesn't get to see her for two months at a time. Well, then... don't you think you should get out soon? It's not my place to say, but... seems to me, the longer you're in it, the harder it's going to be to get out. He said he also wants a family one day, but now, she doesn't. She just wants to focus on her career. Married. Enough said. Moving on.

These are just a few examples. What is wrong with me? I don't care for anything other than personality. How is it that some of my friends from high school are already married and I'm totally single? Not that I mind, though... because I am enjoying this time to getting to know myself. Ever since high school, I have had a boyfriend, been in a relationship. I've never known what I like to wear, eat, listen to, watch, etc. For the past year, I have re-discovered myself as ME, done what I've wanted, when I've wanted and not had to answer to anyone. I have been going to the gym consistently for over one year. I'm happy :o) It's just that I don't understand why I never find a decent guy. I think I'm a nice person, I do nice things for people. I have a good heart (most of the time). I'm the only person I know that would offer a stranger help to find her car at night, in a mall parking lot. I'm the only one who would offer a ride to a really old man (he was a much older Indian grandpa walking down the street in San Leandro- didn't want some hoodlum kids to harass him). Why only very old, or married, or busy, or freakazoids? Goodness. Well, we shall see who is next on the list :o)

That was just me complaining and confused, as usual. Confused, not complaining :o)