Monday, February 11, 2008

Zindagi... Life...

The way I feel about life these days...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E_WV6HRq3SM&feature=PlayList&p=1448FB996991F5BC&index=15

This is from the Hindi movie, Masoom (Innocent).

English translation as follows:


Tujhse naraaz nahin, zindagi… hairaan hoon main… hairaan hoon main…
I am not upset with you, Life... I am astonished... I am astonished...

Tere masoom sawaalon se, pareshaan hoon main…pareshaan hoon main…
I am distressed by your innocent questions... I am distressed...
Tujhse naraaz nahin, zindagi… hairaan hoon main…
I am not upset with you, Life... I am astonished...
Tere masoom sawaalon se, pareshaan hoon main…
I am distressed by your innocent questions...


Jeene ke liye, socha hi nahin, dard sambhaalne honge…
I did not think, in order to live, I would have to take care of woes...
Jeene ke liye, socha hi nahin, dard sambhalne honge…
I did not think, in order to live, I would have to take care of woes...
Muskuraye to, muskuran ke karz utaarne honge….
(I did not think) If I smiled, I would have to take on the debt of smiling...
Muskuraoon jo kabhi… to lagta hai, jaise hoton pe karz rakhaa hai…
If I do smile, it seems, there is a debt upon my lips...

Tujhse naraaz nahin zindagi… hairaan hoon main, hairaan hoon main…
I am not upset with you, Life... I am astonished... I am astonished...

Zindagi tere gum ne hume, rishte naye samjhaye…
Life, your sorrows have taught us new bonds/relationships...
Mile jo hume, dhoop mein mile, shaoon ke thunde saaye…
Whatever cool shade we recieved, is from those we met in the sunlight...
Tujhse naraaz nahin, zindagi… hairaan hoon main…
I am not upset with you, Life... I am astonished... I am astonished...

Aaj agar, bhar aayi hai, boonde baras jayegi…
Today, if my eyes become teary, the tears will flow over...
Aaj agar bhar aayi hai, boonde baras jayegi…
Today, if my eyes become teary, the tears will flow over...
Kal kya patta, kinke liye, aankhen taras jaayegi…
Who knows whom these eyes will long for tomorrow...
Ho jaane kab gum hua, kahan khoya, ik aansoo shupa ke rakha hai...

Who knows when I lost, where I lost, the one tear I had hidden...

Tujhse naraaz nahin, zindagi… hairaan hoon main…
I am not upset with you, Life... I am astonished... I am astonished...

I hope everyone understands the depth of this song...

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Baby Jeremy

Dear Jeremy,

Congratulations! I found out that you are having a baby boy... he will be named after you... Jeremy- Baby Jeremy.

I know you'll watch over him, as you do the rest of us. xoxo

Thursday, February 07, 2008

To Serve And To Protect: A Dedication to Those That Do

This morning, a SWAT member was killed after a stand-off in Los Angeles, CA. In the 41-year history of the SWAT team, this was the first time an officer was killed in the line of duty. The news story can be found on the link below:

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/02/07/us/07cnd-shoot.html?ex=1360126800&en=fd6e36ceb69cdb84&ei=5124&partner=permalink&exprod=permalink

I wanted to take some time to thank those that serve and protect the rest of us. These men and women put their own lives at risk, put their families, their hopes and dreams on hold- just so the rest of us have a security blanket.

In that past, I've had a couple instances where the police hasn't been helpful, out of which, one was especially disturbing. Since then, I have made a couple very good friends who are law enforcement officers. I have also learned that there will always be a sour apple in every family- whether that be a family of police officers, doctors, nurses, business, etc.

Once again... thank you for making the rest of us feel safe.

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

Jeremy Haywood's Memorial Ride

Jeremy's friends and fiance got together and did a "Memorial Ride" for him. I think it's absolutely amazing.

It starts off with the gang riding the same route that Jeremy rode the day he left us. The video concludes with some of Jeremy's old clips...

You may view the video at the following link:

http://myspacetv.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=26312915

Although he did crazy things on his bike, at the time of his death, he was not pushing the limits. It was a freak accident. There was a very low chain blocking the entrance to a parking lot that he did not see. The impact snapped his neck and he died on the spot. May you rest in peace, my dear. Love you , miss you, and think of you every day xoxo

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Uh uh uh...

"Don't play games with a girl that can play better." Very well said.

Friday, January 04, 2008

Year 2007 Reflections: The joys, the tragedies, the memories...

My post about 2007...

The Tragedies-

I don't think I have gone through so much loss in so little time, as the last few months of 2007. From June through December, I lost four people. I KNOW that this is nothing compared to many people... but, before June, I had only lost 2 people in my life. It almost seems as if God was compensating for the last 24 years. I try not to dwell on it- I know that all this is a part of life... and, like I said, I am so lucky compared to many others. Anyway, may they all rest in peace and know that there isn't a day that goes by when I don't think of each and every one of them.

My mom is still very sick; we found out a few days ago, that her left shoulder has permanent muscle damage; however, on the bright side- she is getting better, overall.

The Joys-

I made great friends at Morrison and Foerester, got a great job at TIBCO, and made many more friends here. My little niece, Mira, turned one! I can't believe she runs and talks (albeit baby talk).

The Memories-

* My brother moved away to college... I do miss him a LOT, but I'm so proud of him. He has turned into a responsible young adult, regardless of certain things that could have had other adverse effects.

*All the funny things that happen at work- my neighbor next to my cubicle singing Indian songs (wrong lyrics!), the dark chocolate thief that takes all the dark chocolates when I'm not at my desk, Martha nicknaming us "cube monkies".

* My favorite bday card of all time- from Babbu - I LOVE IT

* The funniest dates, the weirdest dates, and of course, the most awkward ones.

* I remember the first time Miss Mira fell in front of me and started to cry... I cried too LOL.

* Babbu and I went and saw SAW IV- I love love love it!!

* Mission WII! Jose, Anu, Babbu, and I called every store we could think of for the Wii! Anu and I going to Wal-Mart at 6:00 a.m. for the Wii!! Not only that, we got KICKED OUT of there for sneaking in too early. Who does that?!

There are so many more memories, but I don't think I have the time to write them all here.

Life threw a lot of tough lessons my way in 2007, which, like I always say, makes me the person I am today; however, once again, I am hoping for a calmer, boring, and uneventful year... let's see what happens in 2008.